Kaylan's Thoughts

Having my own website was a dream of mine growing up. It mainly stemmed from viewing other people’s half-baked websites and thinking, why would they release this without testing it? I have found a number of official sites from “large” businesses which fail to do the basics – allowing people to easily view and navigate through the content on their site. In fact, after applying to one of these “large” companies, the user experience was so terrible, I actually ended up enrolling onto a UX course. How hard could it be right?

However, I have to give them credit for producing concise, well-thought-out information. Now, I’m currently staring at an empty screen and chatting my head off trying to fill up the page. What concerns me is that I’ve read from a few sources that you have to be consistent when creating your own site. Regular updates for your subscribers are a necessity, especially when starting up. This would be manageable at the beginning, but how long will it take for the quality of my content to slip? Will it be like most of my life, something I start but never keep consistent?

These are the types of questions I ask myself when I start anything new. It is completely self-destructive. Believing in myself has eluded me for large portions of my life. I have doubted myself and talked myself out of doing activities I want to do because I do not believe I can do them consistently and to a high level. Ironically, the self-doubting leads to inconsistency and only developing the skill to a low/mid level.

Also potential embarrassment is also a factor:

What if my auntie reads my blog and reports it to my mum! Or worse, what if my mum reads my blog and shares it to all her friends on Facebook!

There are a million things that could go “wrong,” but what will ever go right if I don’t try? I recently read a book that describes this perfectly.

“Be the person you wish you could be, not the person you feel you are doomed to be. Let yourself run away with your feelings.”

‘Everything I know about love’ by Dolly Alderton

This is the mindset I’m trying to live by, so when I self reflect, I can be proud of trying to be the person I wish to be.

It’s getting around that time of the year where I usually reflect on what I’ve accomplished this year, compare my present self to past versions of myself and kick myself for wasting another year.

However, this year I am genuinely proud of what I’ve accomplished; my resilience and confidence have grown, my mentality has steadily improved, and I’m in the best shape of my life (I’m still not doing cardio, though). Perseverance will be the main behavioural change I will be working on in the next year, hopefully shown by posting here consistently.

If you’ve made it this far, congratulations! In a time where most people’s attention span dies out after 10 seconds, having someone take that much of an interest in what I write is an achievement in itself. So many thanks for reading, and there will be more to come.

After some thought (around 2 minutes) I’ve come up with short list of topics that I will talk about within my blogs. If I think of other points I will sneakily update this list and act like they were there the whole time.

• Unstructured nonsense (like this blog)
• Movie Reviews
• TV Show Reviews
• Restaurant Reviews
• Event Reviews
• Game Reviews
• Professional Activities
• Food Recipes